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Name: justine
Country: United States
State: Maryland
Metro: Waldorf
Birthday: 10/23/1989
Gender: Female
Interests: Lost, Despret house wives, Greys anatomy, pretty much anything on comaedy centrle, the simpsons, theater, 70's music, 80's music, 90's music, lord of the rings,
Expertise: interprative dance, singing gay songs, makeing people laugh, being a hippy, improvatation, quoteing everything ever made, and danceing back stage
Occupation: Education/training
Industry: Art
Message: message me
Member Since:
4/24/2005
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| Well, alot has happend since break. Kevin and I got back together, and he broke up with me for the third, and final time. I didn't really realize it was final until after last night, which involved alot of crying and me punching him in the face. I feel embarassed, and imature, but at the same time releived. I know that in order for me to get over him, I need to hate him, and last night I reached that point. I've been telling myself that I know I didn't want to be with him forever, I just wanted to be with him a little longer. But the truth is, I should not be upset over someone If thats all I want from them. And Kevin isn't right for me at all. What bothers me know is the way everyones reacting. Yes, I made a scene. Yes I cried. Yes, I was dramatic. But I've scene almost everyone in that room break down at one point or another and I have always been there to help them back up. I know I can be overwhelming, but I know I'd do anything for them and at this point, it dosen't seem like they'ed do the same for me. I don't think its true for all of them. But I definetly have to sit back and think about who my real friends are here. I'm taking a break, hopefully for a week. And I'm going home for a weekend. I need to spend time with my family, and my real friends. This isn't to say that the people in 202 aren't "real friends". If they didn't care about me at all, I would have been kicked out a long time ago. But, for the past week, I've reached my worse. And if they can't handle me at my worst, they don't deserve me as my best. Not seeing them for a week may be the hardest thing I've ever had to do, and I doubt I'll actually last. But I need time away from them to appreciate all they've done for me, and I think time will make them remeber how much I've done for them. In the meantime, thank you to all the friends from home for being there for me. I love you all verry much and I couldn't do this without you. | | |
| I went to the Dresden Dolls concert in Baltimore and it was fucking amazing. Waiting in line was pretty intense because we got to watch the dirty buisness brigade do juggling, hoolahooping, and other little tricks. Plus, there were two really hot nures giving out cupcakes, and cake with baby doll parts inside, and we got to talk to them both. The one in the green scrubs with the coat hanger in her hair told Beth happy birthday, and she stood with us all during the show, and then the one in the white nurse outfit, Jessica, hugged us after we told her she turned us gay, and kissed us on the cheeks and said "I didn't mean to do that" and then we got to talk to her about working with the dolls and such after the show. The show itself was awsome. Trixie and the sexy monky were fucking hot, and I'm so glad I got to see her titties, even if she was wearing nip covers. I don't know how someone so short and petit could lift a hairy man air plane style. And Paco Fish was really sexy. Meow Meow didn't do her usual performance because she got there late, and didn't have her group of fifteen boys to undress her, so instead she just pulled peple from the audience and had sicurity gards undress her instead. It was awsome. One of the guys names was Jesus, so she just kept screaming "Jesus! Help me!" Shes such a deva, and I love it. And at one point, Beth yelled "show us your boobs!" so Meow Meow took off her falsies and threw them at her. This goes with out saying, Amanada and Brian did great. It was a verry unorganized show, but that made it feel alot more personal. Plus, it was great to be so close to the stage. They did alot of experiments, playing songs they've never played live before, and even doing a new verison of Mandy Goes to Med School with Meow Meow's pinao player and Amanda switching back and forth. It was pretty intense, but I felt kind of bad for Brian because he looked a little lonely. But they played all good songs and my only disapointment was that they didn't play more. But Amanda also had the flu, so she seemed pretty exausted. After the show, we found Keifer and got lots of hugs and kisses (on the mouth, for some reason) from him. Then we talked to the nurses for a while, and out of no where Brian Viglone just walks towards us and sits down at the bar so he can sign autographs. Beth told him it was her birthday and he yelled "happy birthday!" and hugged her, then she asked if he would sign her ass and he totaly did. Then we were going to get Meows Meows boobs sighned but a girl from crew told us she was actualy looking for them so we gave them back, and Beth said he should sign my boobs instead. He didn't do it, probably because I looked frightned, but he did look at them. I didn't pull them out or anything like that but I had a coat hanger drawn on my right boob and he complimented me on it and then shook my hand. It was so great to make eye contact and smile with a person I've always considered a god. But I didn't really feel star struck, because he was so down to earth. We also got to talk to Meow Meow and she was verry sweet and funny, and signed Beths chest, and stomach. She also asked me to send her the video I took so that will be cool. And I didn't get to talk to Amanda, cause she was really bussy, but she did talk to Beth and Sign her other ass cheek. All in all, it was a fantastic night, posibly the best one I've ever had if you don't include sex. | | |
| Its christmas eve. I'm a little bummbed because I haven't gotten out of the house in a few days, and I feel like a loser. Plus, our plumming is busted, so I also haven't showered or shaved and I'm starting to look, and probably smell, a little homeless. And we don't have to much food. So I've mostly just been a loser and sat on the computer all day playing the sims. But I decided today that I'm definetly going to do something productive. After all, I've got alot of christmas gifts to make. I miss the boys from 202 alot. I'm so used to being able to be around people as often as I please, because there almost never bussy. I even had a dream that we all went clubbing last night, and I ended up slamming Linda's face into the bar because she tried to steal my ear rings. I feel kind of bad. I think I take alot more out on her then I should. Even though she's annoying, she's not really a bad person. And when she's sober she can be pretty fun. So I feel really guilty that I had a dream like that. But I guess I can't really control my subconscious. Either way, I look forward to going back to Phili with a gallon of smirinof for the boys, and hopefully some pictures, since I feel kind of weird only drawing one of Kevin. He always seems to like it when I draw him but I'm worried I look like a stalker. But, I'm sure he'll like it. Hopefully. I'm also looking forward to The Dresden Dolls concert. I'm actualy pretty siked. And it will be nice to see Beth, Joey, and who ever else ends up going. And I'm sure I'll have plenty of time with friends after christmas. Also, I'm having lots of fun with Woodstock. He is by far the coolest kitten even. He likes to lay on paper when I draw and bat at the pincle. And he always sits in my lap and watchs the computer, and even tries to type. I think if it weren't for me brining him home, I'd be in a much worse mood. But its imposible to be grumpy when your holding a cute little kitty. But I'm going to go be productive so that all you people will have gifts. And maybe today I'll be able to shower? I can only dream! | | |
| Its thanksgiving, and I'm extreemly bored. I thought I'd be seeing friends and being with my family this weekend, but instead I'm just sitting on the computer. We'er probably not going to even eat together. Being here is completly pointless. But I guess its better then being by myself all weekend at school. Hopefully the rest of the week will turn out better. That is, if anyone actualy shows up. But, I doubt it. | | |
| I had a crazy-awsome birthday. It started off kind of shitty, because my alarm didn't go off, so I woke up late. I had plenty of time to get to class, but I was wanting to strighten my hair, do my make up, and pick out some nice cloths. Then, we had to go to stapples and buy large prints for our project. I went with my friend Kevin and they charged him six dollars for three, while I had to make five and I olny had two dollars in change. So I was a little bumed and a little stressed, but a really nice girl in my class offered to pay for mine, and it turned out that the prints wern't really that expenisive, they just ripped Kevin off. It sucked for him, but it was good for me cause I got free coppies and some food from Devins car.
Later on, our second class was canceled, so we all stood outside for atleast a half an hour talking about how awsome it was that we didn't have class. During that time, a girl was J-walking between some cars, and a guy on a bike hit her. He slammed into her with his front tire, and went flying. She fell side-ways into a BMW. I didn't actualy get to see it, because my back was to the road, but one of the guys facial expressions when it happened was priceless.
A few minutes later, we saw a little black boy pushing a stroller that was way bigger then him down the street by himself. Me and Sam both looked at him and said "where are his parents?" Just then, hims mom walked behind us and yelled his name, and we all cracked up because she sounded like a bird.
After that, me, Sam, and Kevin walked to love park where they happened to be having a hippy concert. We meet up with a kid, Matt, and hung around for a while listoning to some really bad singing. Kevin got a free CD from the singer, but it didn't work in my dvd player. Then, while we were still at the park, a homeless guy with a purple lighter rubber-banned to his crotch came up to Kevin and asked if burlap was a type of letter. Then he went on to explaine that he'd made some kind of lace out of a leather back pack for some cigarettes, and tried to get Kevin to smoke them with him. I didn't hear most of the conversation, but at one point he pulled out a lighter and my fist thought was that he was gonna blow something up, so I said "I can't do this. I've gotta leave" and walked a few feet away so I wouldn't be laughing in the homeless man's face.
Sam saved the day by telling Kevin we had to get to class, and after that, we went to a difforent park I'd never gone to before. It was more of a grassy park with trees and flowers, and since it was a nice day out it looked really pretty. We mostly just watched squirls and pegions, and saw one pegion who puffed up really fat doing some kind of mating call, and its neck got huge, which lead to a "what if?" conversation about if humans necks did that when they were turned on.
After a while, we got hungry and walked over to Liberty place. I wasn't going to get anything but Kevin asked if he could buy me a birthday lunch, which I thought was really sweet. We had fried chicken and hung out there for a while, then walked back to love park. By then it was pretty dark. I told them that if you laid up side down, the fountain looked like an exploding penis, so we all ended up laying upside down on the wall talking and watching shit for an hour.
Later, we went back to my dorm and watched "Distubia", hung out, and ate cookies. I felt a little bad because one of my roomates had a bad day, so after the movie we went to Sam's dorm and started to watch "super trupers". We got half way through and decided to go on a cigarette break, that turned into us walking all around the city trying to find open subways to sit in so we wouldn't get wet. We wondered aimlessly in the rain and acted like jack asses for a few hours, talking about how we were all gonna get staff infections, and how Sam was dying to mace somebody. Then we went back and finished the movie. We were planning to pull an all nighter but at around two in the morning we all decided that it might be a good idea to go home and shower so we didn't get staff infections.
We hung out in front of the building for a little bit so Kevin and Sam could smoke, then Kevin walked me back to my building and gave me a goodnight kiss. All together, it was a pretty fantastic birthday, and I'm glad I have a cool group of friends to hang out with. We'er gonna try to go to souch street tommarow and visit the mirror-maze, look for holloween stores, and see the buildling where they flim Always Sunny In Philidelphia. It should be pretty fun. Then next week, on a nice day, were gonna go and sleep on some steps outside.
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